Depressed
Feelings very sad & Stress recently. Jux dunno hw to ctrl myself. I cried very often nowadays. I felt lost. Depressed at WORK (v.unhappy) & Study matter.Juz oni mk up a decison for me but i oso cnt do it. Every time get advices fr him i sure kena scolded fr him regarding on studies matter. It goes to ytd too. I oreadi very very depressed but i stil kena scolded by him, so i cried again. He kp saying i dun understand him & refused listen to him. His advice ws i shd work in bank den i wil sure get e educational loan fr bank. Cos my ability to approve educational loan fr bank is impossible as i ws nth to mortgage. Wh i actuali agreed he meant but i dun understnad y i must work in bank den i cn get the educational loan. Confusing took up full-time or part-time studies for me. Most indecisive ws wat cos shd i took up. I tink i shd took up part-time studies. As i feels, my financial ability dun able me to do a full-times studies. But Pte study even mo very xpensive. Haiz..he alwz scold me de. I reali dun wan share anytinks to him man. Regardless anytinks. Sad~Sad~Sad. Who wil understand e position i m standing. My dad mo encourge me earn money instead study. Hse loan & all mthly exp lei. Headache! Ytd when on e way to home w/ ken, hv a lot of thoughts fr his words too. Ya, i asking myself ws i fr learn fr my currenlt job? I reali duno wat i reali gain. Cnnt sae i gain nth but actuali nt much. I do mo filing & photocopying loh. Do agreed w/ him tt i shd tink mo positive tinkings. Mo confident in myself bah...of cos i wil scared i cnt managed n cope wif ma. haiz..
I reali feels i reali got nth much cn chat w him le. Less n Less topic. Dun wan to share anytinks to him. Thought i start nt to share to anytinks work to him but mo or less he actuali aware. He himself oso realised. He ya..again go for fieldcamp le. Since he NS he changed. Unexplained of hw i feels but he feels so stranger to me man. Mum's wat i shd i do? Ping's Wat i do? God plz help me.
Wednesday - 07/12/05 - At Office - Posted 11.40am
